Love so far away
By Justin L. Trotter

What do I have to do?
I can't hold you, I cant feel you.
I want to be near you,
but we are so far.
I reach out in my dreams!
But there just that,
only dreams.
I cry in my soul,
the pain getting worse everyday.
Why am I so alone?
When I love you so much.
Am I to blame?
I feel I am...
I'm always to blame...
I don't trust anyone inside my heart,
I don't trust anyone inside my thoughts.
I'm afraid of losing love,
even though I can't feel your touch,
your hugs,
your kisses,
your love.
Everyday I feel I love you more.
Why do I feel so lonely?
When I love you so much!
Am I to blame?
I feel I am...
I'm always the one to blame...
I cry from my soul,
my heart,
till I fall asleep.
Then in my dreams,
I reach for you arms,
to feel your hugs,
to feel your kisses,
to feel your love.
But it's just...
a dream.
A dream of being with the one I love.
Why am I so lonely?
When i love you so much.





I wish
By Justin L. Trotter

I wish...
I wish I could hold you
Protect you
Love you
I wish I could wrap my arms around you
And never let go
I wish you felt the same for me
I wish I was the one for you
The one to protect you
The one to hold you
The one to make you feel safe
I wish I you loved me
As much as I love you
I wish
I wish I was perfect for you
I wish I was there for you always
I wish it was me that made your heart melt
I wish it was me that made you feel complete
I wish it was me that made you smile
I wish it was me that made you laugh
I wish
I wish I could wrap my arms around you
Feel your body close to mine
I wish I could know what it feels like
To feel your touch
To feel your love
To feel your soul
I wish
I wish
I was
The
One
For you
I'll always love you.


True Love
By Justin L. Trotter


Breathing, sighing, moaning
My heart aches, my soul whines
Hold me, feel me, care for me
I'm falling, my mind is astray
Never, never let go
Never lose sight
My heart needs someone.
Tender love is what I want
Is what i need
Sorrow fills my life
The burden of my creed
Nobody knows the ache
The pain growing inside.
Screaming
Screaming for your love
Crying for a tender touch
Yelling to be loved
Seeking your hand
Your heart
Your acceptance.
I need your love
I need your touch
I need your kiss
I need a kind soul
I need you.
You make my fears fly away
My sorrows fade with your laugh
The sadness inside is lifted, by your touch
By your hands
You bring me happiness
Never am I alone.
I have you
You to love
You to hold
You to kiss
You to protect.
When I hear your voice
When I hear you laugh
My fears are forgotten
My worries fade away
Away with my troubles.
Never again
Never again will I feel alone
You are here
You make life worth living.
I need tender touch
I need a kind soul
Care for me
Hold me
Love me.
You are all that matters
Your happiness is intertwined with mine
I want all of your dreams to come true
You deserve so much, so much
I want you to be happy even if its without me
You deserve so much, so much.
I'm scared
I'm scared that I won't
Won't be able to give you all that you want
All that you deserve.
I see your future
You will be happy
The man that you are with is unknown
But you don't worry
The one for you is there
There for you
There to love you
There to hold you
There to care for you.
May all your dreams come true
May all your wishes be granted
You deserve so much
So much
My love for you is so grand
So grand.
I wish I could hold you
Care for you
Protect you
Be with you
Feel you
I wish I could hear you laugh
Listen to your heart.
My heart aches for you
I need you
You who make all things alright
You who shows me love
You who cares for me.
I wish I could full fill all you desires
All your longings
I wish I could wipe those fears
I wish I could wipe those tears.
You mean so much
So much to me
So much.
I love you.





I need you
By Justin L. Trotter

Love me...
Hold me,
Care for me.
My soul is lost, my heart is empty,
My love is never heard.
Love me...
Hold me,
Open my heart,
Make me feel loved, make me feel complete.
As you look at my eyes,
You see into my soul,
You see my screams, my dreams,
My fears, my longings.
You hear my enternal cries.
Love me...
Hold me.
Love me...
Hold me.





Father's attempt at Death
By Justin L. Trotter

Standing there in the doorway,
My eyes staring ahead.
Never has the pain been so great,
Never has my life ever bled,
Never...
Never, have I cried so hard.
Looking for life,
There, over there
Hanging by a thread
Breathing stopped,
Life given up,
Time slowed.
Standing there in the doorway,
Breath caught in my throat.
Stones in my stomach,
Knives in my heart.
Why?
Why must I see?
What evils did I do?
It is my fault
Nobody
Else’s
Standing there in the doorway.
I fall to my knees,
Tears streaming down my cheeks.
It is my fault,
I caused this,
I caused him to give up
I caused the pain......
Screaming,
Crying,
Helplessly I struggle,
Struggle to understand why.
Why?
What have I done?
NOTHING !
I have done nothing to deserve this,
This pain
This suffering,
This struggle.
My feelings fade,
Away they go as anger overcomes me.
As I feel thoughts flow through me.
I have done nothing to deserve this!
Why?
Why must I see?
Why must I feel?
Why?
Why?
Screaming,
WHY?
Crying.............why?




I am here now
By Justin L. Trotter

The light seems to never shine,
You haven't felt its warmth for so long.
You feel cold,
You feel alone,
Nobody can see you,
Nobody can hear you.
The wind blows through you,
Piercing your skin,
Your hear,
Your soul.
Strain as you might,
You are alone,
Alone.
Then...
You feel hands on your cheeks,
You feel arms wrapped around you.
Warmth flows over your body,
Through your soul,
Into your heart.
You look up,
Only to see,
Someone who cares,
Someone who loves,
Someone who feels.
Their eyes heal you,
Their love rises you.
Do not worry,
Never worry,
I am here now.




Let me help
Justin L. Trotter

Take your pain away from your heart,
Reach for me with your hands,
Through burning doors, molten gates.
Reach, Reach.
Press into my heart, my soul
Pull the thorns, heal your wounds
Nobody knows the pain.
I do,
I feel,
I cry.
I care for you, all those who live
Let me take your pain,
Put it inside
In the burning gates, closed doors.
I'll protect those who.....
Reach, Reach
Into my soul, into my heart.
You will find kindness, love, and peace inside.
I'll keep the pain,
Save you from the agony.
Please, please let me be there,
I'll protect you,
Save you,
Cherrish you,
Love you.
Reach, reach into my heart,
My soul,
Into these burning gates, closed doors.
Reach,
REACH,
INTO MY SOUL,
MY HEART.
REACH...
REACH.




The Journey's Over
By Justin L. Trotter

As you go through life
It is only a constant dream
You watch as others pass you by
You see as others fall behind
You take your ride on the log
Down the river of life
You feel the weight shift
Swaying, Swaying back and forth, over the rapids.
You gently lay back
Letting the river take you
Only knowing the end is near You see the waterfall is ahead
It's up to you on your destiny
You make the choice, to live or die
You take the plung, nobody else
Down you fall,
You feel the freedom, the cleansing.
You come up for air
You see the light, feel the air, see the end,
The Journey's Over